The Law of Undulation
As I look back on my life and even most recently, I have gone thru many trough periods and typically my faith in God during this time was strained and to contrast my times of peaks is where I frequently ignored God with my time and did not regularly give Him true thanks for bringing me first out of the difficult times into times of prosperity with His love and grace.I regularly analyze my life and see an immature man of God, still driven by my own selfish desires and sin. I pray that I may grow into a mature man of God and will put away childish things, that my life may be an example to those around me. I am constantly plagued by feeling peace only when the seas of life are calm and I have the trust in the provisions I have stored up. This kind of thinking is lacking in complete trust in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ to be my provider and sustainer.
I rely still on things of this world to bring temporary joy and this thinking is faulted. I look to others for validation and worth. While I ride the waves of life from peaks of joy to the troughs of sorrow and despair and if I am not seeking God, my misery will continue as these undulations will be replayed throughout the rest of my life. I hope to seek God as closely in times of much and trust Him as much in times of little. I understand how events in my life can attempt to lead me away from God just as much as sin can, like the wealth that can be gained and all the pleasures of this world from travel to self gratification , this type of lifestyle can keep me self centered and worshiping myself and serving myself.
I am regularly at odds against this and know what I want as in a heart for God , a love that outpours to others, to be selfless and that my joy and peace will be found in God and not the temptations of this world and of that of Satan and his army as Uncle Wormwood talks about in this letter. My prayer is that my strength will come from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and my will become His will. This is done by my daily renewal of my mind thru His word and repentance of my sins. This I must act boldly and intentionally, to be transparent and accountable in a community of believers. Thru prayer and a constant relationship with God I can survive the undulations and be secure no matter the circumstances.